Post status: Past track---Silent Hopeful (Broken Pieces)

It was unexpected meeting after a long, long time of missing each other. I was staggered, but I tried to hide it, I don't wan't him to give a damn reason or an edge to be near again. Yet, feelings cannot lie no matter how you tried to conceal it; it's like a floating feather in the air.

Afternoon and almost dark in a friend's house he is there to celebrate too, can't imagine that I will be seeing him around after a long period of absence in contiguous place like this. He was happy indeed when I saw him, never to mention that he tried to ignore my presence too, the way I did with him just a fancy greetings of  "hello" to my friends and to a celebrant, then I move ahead.

I tried to occupy my time without noticing that he was surreptitiously watching me from afar. Catching his every glance was like an electrifying bolt breakthrough to my body down to my veins, and once reliving the feeling that once was dead. I didn't like the feeling. I hate it. But I was susceptible every time, he was near.

Then my fear has come when at the top of my tipsier he sat beside me, and wraps his arms around me, looking at me like nothing happened before, he smiled at me and said:

"How are you?" it's like a lightning bolt that hits me, I just found myself looking at him too while sheepishly answered him"

"I'm fine."

He got up and went to the kitchen tried to mingle to a bunch of celebrators outside the house. I stayed in my place thinking trying to figure out things about what happened just awhile ago, still in the midst of abysmal emotion, he awaken me again with his presence, and sit down beside me for the second time. Now with more intense reaction, he whispered the word I'd never expect he will ever utter.

"Sorry for what I had done, I've changed now! I am not the same as before."

Then, brusquely covered my eyes and kissed me. I was dumbfounded. I could not say a word, but took a deep breath and sighed. I didn't even know if people around us witnessed what he has done. My world stops for a moment and could not even think, but savor the taste of his kissed. It was very unusual he never did it (being kissed me in front of many people) in the entire days that we are together before we parted without goodbyes.

The night was covered of mystic moments, I had never known that I fell on his knees again, and trying to live in a flash like a fresh bloom flowers in the green fields. He was so sweet that night that he has never been before in the days that we were together, Indeed he changed. It's confirmed. I could probably say he got my trust again. Until the sec that I found I am with him again with silent hopefuls it will bloom.

Things changed that we get closer to each other every day. We had more intimate time than the usual ones before. He is more caring and sensitive to my feelings. All of this feed my conviction that we are stepping to a more consequential relationship, I submit myself again to my silent hopeful that this is the beginning of a more sophisticated correlation holding on to my fate somehow I will have his words to justify this feeling.


note: written on my journal home site on 22/01/09

I believe that two people are connected at the heart, and it doesn't matter what you do, or who you are or where you live; there are no boundaries or barriers if two people are destined to be together. -- Julia Roberts